it has been a super duper long while since i have posted anything longer than 400 words. however, though i have an idea of what to rant about, as usual, i don’t know what to begin with. i guess i can start to be all reflective. ho hum.
ok 2008. probably the most unexpected year of my life. why? after uni last year, i was so sure and clear of what my days would be like but alas, those were nothing but mere dreams. however, for some weird reasons, my wish of becoming a writer in a men’s magazine did come true but it wasn’t how i had exactly thought of. ho hum.
managing finances. something that i totally and pathetically suck at. i truly have to learn about separating the things that i need from the things that i want. and while i’m at that, i have to master prioritizing. saying no seems so hard for me even though i am naturally stubborn. crowd-pleaser much? no? yes? ho hum.
discipline. i do not have this thing at all and that’s totally wrong. ironically, even after two and a half years of rigid discipline in the army (not quite actually but still) and three years of being away and semi-alone in melbourne (still not quite, but i managed to control myself over countless petty indulgence), i am not disciplined enough. and not to forget, i do have a strict father who breathes discipline. i have to improve myself in that department. on top of saying no to others, i must bring myself to say no to myself. i’m quite the bad influence actually but i’m cool like that. =] ho hum.
procrastination. i am so gifted at procrastinating that it i shock myself. i wonder why is it so hard for me to get my ass up and do things immediately. i have to stop this shit and tell myself that it will not kill me if i do my tasks or whatever right away. ho hum.
sounds like a lot of work eh? ho hum.
but on the bright side, sometime now next week while you people are reluctantly celebrating christmas and watever, i’ll be here:
and here:
for some flea-market thing in Kitano Tenmangu Shrine in Kyoto, Japan.
ho hum. =]
mdir
